been pretty absent online lately, which I'm personally loving. writing it all down when I can, and when I can't remembering I'm loving this world and soaking it in and packing my days with loved ones and great moments - and it's ok to be tired and busy, there will be time to rest at some point.

just finished Shauna Niequist's 3rd book "bread & wine" and I know that seems to be all I've blogged about the past few months, but really her books have given me such a new inspiration and I guess I just feel I connect with her words on so many levels. she ended this story with these words and I was again left in awe:

"I want you to gobble life up in huge bites, tasting everything, trying every new flavor, remembering every smell and texture like its the best thing you've ever had. I want you to live with wild and gorgeous abandon, throwing yourself into each day, telling the truth about who you are and who you are not, writing a love song to the world itself and to the God who made every inch of it."

I want to write my love song...

black and white sunday. beautiful, peaceful, fun...

its been an interesting, emotional week for this girl. not really sure why, or really just don't want to get too personal on what i sometimes consider my online journal (i have a real one too - which i believe is good for the soul)... anyway wanted to share about the message i heard in church this week. we've been in a series about John and as we approach Easter we are nearing the end of the gospel that i have thoroughly enjoyed hearing about. this week was John 13:1-38, in which Christ first reminds us that he will love us to the end, then goes on to show just what this love means by washing the feet of disciples and then ends by commanding us to go out and love the way he has loved us. this passage sort of slapped me in the face, first with the consistent ability to overwhelm me by the unbelievable power of God's grace - that he has loved me from the beginning and will love me til the end, no matter what - a love that we will never experience in this world. and also that the love we sometimes get caught up in, or picture, or watch in the movies is mostly so off. that love is a choice and Jesus chose to love us, he chose to die for us when he could have easily chosen to have power over us - i mean he is God and he humbles himself to show he is a servant King not a power hungry king. how do i not realize this everyday? how can i not take this kind of love and forgiveness and give to everyone i know and don't know throughout my day? as the days til Easter lessen, i hope to dig deep and find this passion i was slapped in the face with on sunday and use it to lead my life in a way that is more Christ-like, more humble, more generous and definitely full of more love.

i'm giving it a try...
http://kandersonwhite.tumblr.com/

a few personal pics... trolley pubbed it yesterday for my birthday celebration. it was absolutely gorgeous, could not have asked for a more perfect day or a more fun group of friends! so thankful for all of the awesome people i have in my life.

"inclusion, not exclusion

connection and solidarity rather than rank and hierarchy.

touch rather than distance.

compassion rather than control.

he comes on a donkey, not a horse.

weeping and broken, not proud and triumphant."

-rob bell (sex God)

"she  knows who she is.

she just forgot for a little while." 

-donald miller

(been there before)

checking in after a lovely weekend to say hello and happy march! and my favorite song just came on itunes shuffle and its making me smile (heavenly day, by patty griffin). i've been sick but still so thankful for this restful weekend full of wonderful friends and gorgeous weather. i know its going to be cold again but this little taste of spring was absolutely perfect. i'm itching for it to be like this all the time. i was hoping to go to church today didn't want to rush it but was thinking about how i found my own ways of worshiping God while riding a bike and experiencing this beautiful world he created, surrounded by the beautiful people he has put in my life. so really i'm just feeling incredibly blessed and peaceful and full of joy. hope that march has greeted you with this same love. if not chin up we've got a great week ahead!

"just look at life with more playful eyes. don't be serious. seriousness becomes like a blindness. don't pretend to be a thinker, a philosopher. just simply be a human being. the whole world is showering its joy on you in so many ways, but if you are too serious, you cannot open your eyes." (osho)

ps. happy sunday.

i guess i'm a little late... but i was thinking about valentine's day yesterday mostly about how i hear so many people complaining about this day that is supposed to be a day full of love. i may be very biased because i grew up always loving valentine's day. my favorite part was making our cards each year, we have a box, that i smile thinking about, full of stickers and pink and red paper and heart shaped things and doilies and the world was ours to create. for everyone in my class, every year. later, missy and i would help mom make a heart shaped german chocolate cake decorated with pink icing. i have fond memories of running to the door to meet dad with roses, eating in the dining room with candles and getting to open cards and treat bags filled with candy and mostly cute little trinkets mom had found for us. then lighting pink candles and digging in. this holiday was full of love for me from the beginning so its never been about having a significant other, its always been about having special people who love you and care for you to celebrate in your life.

getting to my point. people get in a tizzy about the cheesiness or the materialism that often surrounds this holiday, and sure i think we should show those we love how much we love them all the time, but hey if people want to go out and spend money on love, why not? in my opinion there's much worse things people could be spending their money on. so really i love that we have this holiday. why not take a chance to celebrate all the love around you, single or not somewhere there is someone who loves you, so don't forget about them. on valentine's day and on any day. xoxo.

happy valentine's day! hope your day is full of love!

"when i'm older i'll understand" said lucy,

"i am older and i don't think i want to understand," replied Edmund. 

(c.s. lewis/the chronicles of narnia)

for your black and white sunday, a little message from my yogi tea today: "may this day bring you peace, tranquility and harmony" i hope this gorgeous bright january day is filled with all of these for you.

she loved three things; a joke, a glass of wine and a handsome man. 

-w. somerset maugham, the moon and sixpence

it's black and white sunday...

have a peaceful day.

just a few things i desperately want...

all from my pinterest page. 

outlook for 2014:

"you're waiting to not be afraid and that's never going to happen. if you want this, it's there for you. but you have to jump through the fear."