"so i will sit
sit still
sit at your feet
now my will
is given up gladly
for i know that i'm yours
i know that i'm yours
in your presence
i'll sit at your feet

i find your heart in the secret place
and in your beauty i will stay
stress and fear are stripped away
but you remain"

i love your love the most. 

"be happy for no reason, like a child. 

if you are happy for a reason you are in trouble
because that reason can be taken from you." 

-- deepak chopra

BEACH TOMORROW!!

in other news. cannot wait til Christmas...

happy hump day!

in light of graduation and entering a new stage of my life, full of uncertainty and excitement...

"the real struggle... is about you: you, a person who has to learn to live in the real world, to inhabit her own skin, to know her own heart, to stop waiting for her life to begin" - caroline knapp

happy thursday from my favorite color. 

"we show the depth of our brokenness and the degree of our foolishness when we're even tempted to think there's some set of circumstances, some person, some relationship, some paramour, some lover, some change in our world, some sensual experience that can satisfy the restlessness in our hearts. but we're made singularly for you, Jesus; we're designed to be fulfilled and completed only by you. never let us forget this, and allow us to come more fully alive to an insatiable thirst that you alone can meet. you are the most loving and tender bridegroom who cherishes a most unlikely and ill-deserving bride." -- scotty smith

   "i will have to tell you, you have bewitched me, body and soul, and i love you, i love you, i love you. i never wish to be parted from you from this day on." - mr. darcy

this morning when i woke up i was thinking about how i don't praise God nearly enough. when i come to him i look for guidance and answers but i don't take the time to truly worship him. after a wonderful sermon this morning full of words the Lord was speaking straight to me i broke down while singing.  i was sitting and praying before communion asking God to just let me sit in his presence, just to be for a minute, to be surrounded fully by him. we began to sing "you have redeemed my soul from the pit of emptiness.... nothing is impossible for you" and i was hit with the truth that i have not been fufilling my promise to God to be all that i can in Him. my faith is lacking. and all i have to do is believe. i need a reminder today that i am loved and i am His child, eternally.

paul wrote a beautiful song they sang this morning (check it out on itunes: classic city collective, leave your guns with the usher -- song title: love's left standing)

and we all fall

we all fall down and love's left standing tall

and i am on my knees again

and then you call 

we hear your voice and suddenly i'm new again - covered in your love

and love's left standing

playing on repeat.

i've realized i can be bad about internalizing my feelings when it comes to change. i don't handle it well so i try to ignore it or push it deep down because i don't know how else to escape it. today i didn't leave my bed for longer than i should have because i kept thinking about how i was about to graduate and it put this awful knot in my stomach. i needed to get it out. all i could think about was how badly i wanted to find a dance studio and pour it out of me, all alone. because when there are no words to describe your feelings, dance is always there to speak for you.

just a few summer necessities...

"happy. just in swim shorts, barefooted, wild-haired, in the red fire dark, singing, swigging wine, spitting, jumping, running -- that's the way to live. all along by the sigh of the sea out there." -jack kerouac