"when spring came, even the false spring, there were no problems except where to be happiest." -- Earnest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast

bought my cap and gown today. it has me in a very sentimental mood, a strange mood actually. i have a little over a month of college left. WHAT?!?! i don't even believe it, maybe because i don't want to, moving on and changing is a concept i've always struggled with even when i was a little girl. and here comes the biggest change of all.... the real world.

i don't want to leave this house, we're currently pretending it's just going to cease to exist and no one else will ever live in it. what will happen with keeping up with friends? who will be there for me in Raleigh next year? moving on, growing up. its just part of life. and i think its ok to be scared and nervous its hard though. i have to remind myself to turn to God in the midst of all this, because lately that's the last thing i've been doing.

ah i can here the thunder coming and i'm getting so excited. i love these warm days i really do but i feel like we skipped spring a little here, and i'm ready for some april showers for sure.