i've realized i can be bad about internalizing my feelings when it comes to change. i don't handle it well so i try to ignore it or push it deep down because i don't know how else to escape it. today i didn't leave my bed for longer than i should have because i kept thinking about how i was about to graduate and it put this awful knot in my stomach. i needed to get it out. all i could think about was how badly i wanted to find a dance studio and pour it out of me, all alone. because when there are no words to describe your feelings, dance is always there to speak for you.